Apr 8, 2012

Pixie Dust part 3 ;**

Compose message bu sul6an
you alone?

m3a ahaly shfeech?

um 7areb
mafeny shay I have to show you something BUT my hubby cant know

ee okay mo mushkila bs shloun?

um 7areb
ill let you know when to come o pick it up okay?


So ri7t il bait thinking of a way to divert my husband from the transaction that was going to take place sine I dont want him to know just yet.

Think Joun


So I walked into the house, up the stairs and into his office and sat down on his lap hugging him.

3azzam: hala bl zain hala ib um 7areb

Joun: hala feek 7yatie walhana 3laik

I was unbuttoning his shirt as I was saying that since I dont have time to waste.

3azzam: aah walhana 3ly WALHANA 3ly?

Joun: inrou7 our room

I got up, taking his hand leading him into our bedroom. I pushed him onto the bed and sat on his rock hard abs. Using my fingers I traced each, and every single defined muscle on his body.

It drove him insane, I saw it in his eyes

3azzam: baby

he pleadingly said

I kissed his neck playing with his hair, it literally moved him onto another planet.

i7m, lets just say I took advantage of my husband and I am damn proud of it.

I started playing with his hair cause I needed him to fall asleep, and it worked like a charm 20 minutes later he was fast asleep. I hopped into the shower after messaging Bu sul6an and telling him to come.

I changed, and tip toed downstairs and waited in the garden, as soon as I saw his car I walked over to him.

him: um 7areb shfeech 5ar3teny

Joun: mafeny shay bs I have something I know I shouldnt give it to you but you have to read this.

I handed him the diary.

Joun: read it tonight, anything and everything you read stays with you fahem

him: inshalah

Joun: Drop it off at work tomorrow sam3?

him: haha inshalah yala dshay before your husband thinks we are up to something

Joun: w0uldnt you like that bye

him: bye

Dshait il bait wna 5yfa I dont know if I did the right thing or not, but 5ala9 I gave him the diary o allah yaster. I crawled back into bed with my baby and fell asleep happy and content.


pixie shino pixie? fta7 il kitab o shft writing okay so its a diary bs whose diary is it. I put the book on the passenger seat o ri7t il duwanya g3dt for 3 hours b3dain 5thait bandero 3shan awady il bait

bandar: shino hatha?

him: ma adree

bandar: ha shino ma tadree

him: um 7areb gave it to me and asked me to read it o galatly il kalam ily maktoub stays with me

bandar: ahaa

he placed the diary on the dashboard respecting ina the book was meant for me o he know I would tell him once I read it.

I took a shower and got into bed o started reading.

"today they hit me"

"I had to go to the hospital"

"I know have 8 scars on my body"


"no one loves you"

"joun feels sorry for you thats is why she puts up with you"

"I saw him"

"I couldnt take my eyes off him"

"I miss him"

"I love him"

"I hate him, but I love him"


"bu sul6an"

g3dt 4 hours reading the diary 3ainy 6l3t she went through all of that, she dealt with all of that and she had no one to take care of her, to love her, to hold her la o foug hatha she not only likes me but she loves me.

9aber 9aber


araya it7bny?

ma gdart anam mistanis

9:00 am

I took the diary o dropped it 3nd Joun bl dawam.

Joun: so

him: yeah

Joun: any thoughts?

him: laish ma gltely Joun

Joun: I just found out ina she is in love with you

him: not that part Joun her family

Joun: bu sul6an hatha 3my he is family, I am not proud of it but they are what can I do ya3nee

him: shloun they treat her that way

Joun: I really dont know bs no one knows hm oboy ma yadre

him: we have to do something

Joun: we?

him: ee we Joun ana a7ibha

Joun: you think b9er shay bainkum?

him: ma adre I hope so

Joun: I dont know what 3azzam will say to this

him: wana shako ib 3azzam Joun you know I am a good person, you know that the whole 5awla thing was all on her not on me

Joun: I know but he doesnt

I stood up, I was so mad

him: wna shako fee

I stormed out of her office o r7t il dawam wna afaker ma adre shasawi lazem asawi shay !

MAY 17 11:12 pm

pixie I thought I lost you, my heart stopped if someone was to find you and read all the things I wrote ... I dont know what I would do ! I need to start doing something with my life, its real boring. Dr.3bdullah emailed me about doing some free lance work for him since I cant come into the office and I agreed but no one is going to know about this.

I have been avoiding Saif's calls every time he calls me it seems like marriage is brought up and I just cant find myself marrying him, it wont be fair to him I would be marrying him as my ticket way out of this hell whole and not because I love him.

You know how I love, and we know I wont be hearing from him.

MAY 29 11:00 pm

I dont write much cause nothing much is happening but something STRANGE happened today. I was laying in bed, you know the usual.

Knock knock

me: come in

man9or: can I come in

me: akeed

man9or: shlonich?

me: um zaina

9ara7tan knt 5yfa laish yaya 3ndy, let me tell you something about my brother man9or, he is super sweet bs he doesnt have a strong personality and that is why my younger brother and father control his thinking and his actions.

Even when it comes to hitting me, he never physically hurt me and would try to convince the others to ease up on me.

man9or: arent you bored mn hal g3da?

me: haha la 3dee I am use to it by now

man9or: mm how about we go out

me: laa its okay

man9or: laish im hungry and I know you havent had dinner

me: bs a5af....

man9or: ana kalamt oboy dont worry about it

I jumped out of bed

me: okay can I shower quickly

man9or: ee hm ana I need to shower o change, an6urich ta7at okay

me: okay

I was happy. For the first time in months I was looking forward to something, strange I know but I just needed to leave the house I was starting to feel like a prisoner. Samar and Joun came to visit me and I apologized to her for not being able to attend the milcha, but she assured me that it was just a small family thing but she still wanted me to join.

I promised I would come to the wedding whenever it was.

She was so happy, oh well obviously I figured out ina it wasnt him, it was his brother.

She was glowing mashalah.

Anyways, man9or and I headed to Fish market, we chose our food and settled in our chairs.

man9or: so?

me: haha I dont think we ever were out alone

man9or: adree, sorry arooya

me: its okay man9ory its not your fault

man9or: it kinda is ana o5och ilkbeer I should be there for you to protect you

me: I dont blame you I know its not you bs ana mo fahma laish they do what they do ana ma swait lihum shay

man9or: its not you shofay ever since my mother baba was lost she was the love of his life, b3dain he met your mom o he was looking for someone to take care of him and his two sons your mother forget him and she took care of us then you came and he thought he would lose her to you at first he use to hit her for neglecting you and then when he knew he couldnt hit her anymore he would hit you because you were so young and fragile and for some reason 3bala rjoula o barako nisa5t oboy

me: yeah

man9or: i7na yayen in'3ayer jaw o you smile mo we bring up memories right

me: right

I faked a smile because my brother was trying right.

While we were enjoying our dinner here is what happened at home.

The house phone was ringing and after Loreta answered, she informed my mother it was someone for him.

mama: aloo

: il salam 3laikum

mama: 3laikum il salam

: sam7eny ya um man9or daga mit25er bs ana o banaty naby neyey inshouf bntkum

mama: ee 7yakum allah ib bait baitkum

: alah e7yech mita enasbich?

mama: mita ma 7baitaw tyoun

: youm il arb3a ensabich?

mama: ee akeed

: 3la 5air inshalah b3d 9alat il m'3rb inshalah

mama: inshalah m3a il salama

: alah esalmich

After dinner man9or and I went for a walk 3l ba7ar then he got me some ice cream and we headed home.

mama: zain sharftaw

man9or: laish yuma 3sa ma shar

mama: la bs t25ar il wagt wain kintaw

man9or: 6l3na nit3sha o tmshaina

mama: wintay ma 3ndich ilsan? ma adre shloun nas yayoun ya56bounich alah yaster bs

me: shino?

mama: ee youm il arb3a tjahzay byoun eshofounich

man9or: mino yuma?

mama: mo muhum aham shay iny bftak minha

Dialing Joun

Joun: babe dgeega o akalmich

me: inshalah

him: mino araya?

Joun: ee laish

him: la bs so2al

Joun: aha, anyways 3azzam shway o yanzilik

him: myloug 3laich the strict mother

Joun: really? damn it I dont want to be the push over

him: la you wont 3azzamo will

Joun: nan6er wnshouf

so pixie, should I say yes to him?

should I let him rescue me?

should he be my way out?

would it be fair?
My mother woke me up to take me shopping, apparently she wanted me to look good and she believed it would require a lot of work. We bought a dress, heels, she bought me a new pair of diamond ear rings, then we headed off to the saloon where I was waxed, plucked and polished, got my hair curled, got my nails done, we picked up our order of sweets and pastries, then we headed home.

mama: abeech jahza 3l 6 sam3a

me: inshalah

I went up to my room, tied my hair up and took a short nap to pass the time. Roseline woke me up at 5 I took a quick shower then headed to my mother to do my make up, her orders not mine.

Thankfully she kept it simple.

The door bell rang at 6.

mama: yala nizlay salmay 3la murt 5alich

I looked up at her with, terrified.

me: murt 5aly? wh ... why is she here?

mama: mala da3y il as2la ro7ay salmay 3laiha kany nazla

me: inshalah

I walked down the stairs, with my heart beating louder than my heels against the marble staircase. I walked down the hallway making my way to the guest living room.

me: il salam 3laikum

um-saif: w 3laikum il salam hala arooya mashalah 3laich 9ij 3rous

me: tslmeen 5alty

6ab3an everything was clear to me at the moment, Saif was the one who proposed, but why didnt he tell me I know he wanted to marry me, he constantly mentioned it but I never thought he would go through with it.

mama: hala 3lya shlonich?

um-saif: b5air wain 5awatich?

mama: they are on there way now, arooy gomay shofay Loretta 5aleha ityeeb il chai wl gahwa

me: inshalah

I got up and headed to the kitchen, but made a quick detour and called Joun.

Joun: alaa

me: its me listen its saif

Joun: what?

me: its saif murt 5aly tawha yat o 5alaty are on the way

Joun: what are you going to say?

me: ma adree, I have to go someone arrived I can hear them bye

Joun: bye

Joun's mind was racing, it couldnt be Saif he told her he was proposing.

She called him.

him: hala um 7areb


him: bwady il ahal bait araya shfeech

Joun: WHAT?

him: shfeech why are you screaming

Joun: because murt 5alha is there and her son wants araya

him: NA3AM

Joun: akeed fee misunderstanding

him: shasawi al7een

Joun: you cant back out now, 5ala9 they are expecting you

him: alah yaster, 5ala9 joun akalmich b3dain okay

Joun: 6amny

him: inshalah

I sat down with my aunts and murt 5aly for about half an hour and then the bell rang again. I looked over at my mother and she had a smile on her face.

I was confused.

them: il salam 3laikum

us: w 3laikum il salam

mama: 7y allah mn yana

his mother: alah e7yeech ya um man9or

mama: nwartw il bait

his mother: imnwr bhala

They sat down, and were looking at me with a loving smile.

Now I was really confused.

his mother: mashalah hathy bntkum?

my mother was now sitting next to me

mama: ee hathy arayte il '3alya

his mother: mashalah 3laiha alah e7af'6ha w5aleha lich

mama: tslmeen

My mother introduced my aunts and murt 5aly, and it was his mother, 2 of his aunts and both sisters. The ladies were talking and I was just staring in my lap.

his mother: wain tsht'3lain araya?

mama: laa bntna ma tsht'3l

His mother was taken back by my mother, she didnt let me say a single word.

his mother: o min wain t5arjtay

mama: jam3at il kuwait

rand: araya could you please show me where the rest room is

I smiled and got up to take her to the guest restrooms.

rand: araya

me: na3am

rand: mm, shofay bu sul6an asked me to give you his number wna il 9ara7a I refused but he is really worried about you and bs yaby y6amn 3laich

I just blushed, I couldnt even answer her. She handed me the paper with his number and I held on to it as my life depended on it. His family were pleasant, talking and laughing and 2 hours later they excused himself.

I heard Rand calling him and I couldnt help but smile.

As soon as they left, the comments started.

5alty Mais: haa shrayich ?

mama: mn 9ijich no way

my heart sank deeper than the titanic

um-saif: laish mashalah 3laihum imbayn 3laihum 5oush nas

mama: la la not my style

5alty Mais: okay bs mo intay ily bta5then wldhum aroya is

mama: whya malha kilma 3ndy, kalamy ana ily yamshe

I ran out of the living room and up to my room, throwing myself on my bed. I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry.

I wanted him.

2 hours later

Joun Calling

me: *crying* please pick me up I dont want to live here please jouny

Joun: 7beebty shfeech?

me: please t3aly

Joun: yala yala I am coming right now

I got out of bed and pulled out a bag from the closet filling it with necessities. I quickly changed into a track suite and walked down quietly.


Calling Bu Sul6an

Joun: bu sul6an bsr3a pick me up inrou7 3nd araya ana 7asa b9er shay

him: wainich im coming now

Joun: ana bl bait yala ta3al

him: send me her number

Joun: okay

The house was quiet, my heart was pounding I knew I shouldnt be doing this but I couldnt take it anymore. I made it down the stairs, across the hallway, down the few steps when my phone rang I quickly answered.

me: aloo

him: rytee

me: *crying* I need you please ta3ly laish you left me

him: im sorry 7beebty im sorry im coming now ni6reny im picking you up

barak: ARAYA

I froze in my place. I didnt turn around to see him, I didnt have to I could tell from his tone just how mad he was.

him: araya ... araya ... alooo

All he heard was a loud slap then my phone dropped to the floor.

He shut the phone and called Joun.

Joun: ha wainik


Joun: sh shfeek bu sul6an, shfeeha araya

him: ma adree ma adree bs sm3t barak o he heard us talking wain 3azzam o oboch lazem eyoun

Joun: inshalah inshalah

Joun called her father quickly explaining everything. 3azzam and her picked up Joun's father and drove over to my house where he found bu sul6an waiting impatiently.

He had a million questions but right now it wasnt the right time.

They kept ringing the bell, and finally Roseline opened with a terrified look.

roseline: she is not moving, she is not moving

He pushed the door open and ran in to see me laying there on the floor lifeless in my own puddle of blood.


baba: ....

He carried me and ran out of the house with Joun. 3azzam decided to stay with his father in law in case things got physical. He had me in his lap and just kept saying my name over and over again.

him: araya 7beebty araya talk to me open your eyes baby please araya .. araya ... rytee .... arooya baby 5ala9 5ala9 im here please gomay

Joun: is she breathing

him: ma adree ma adree ma adree araya araya araya

3my: mn mita wnt i6ig bntik?

baba: malik shu'3ul

He moved closer to him grabbing his shirt.


baba: bs hathy bnty

3my: int fahem shino ya3ne bntik?

3azzam o 3my left my house and followed us to the hospital. I was sent to the operating room instantly since I was bleeding internally and they had to control that.

Joun: wha... what if she ...

him: please joun dont say it please

3azzam: ha sh9ayer

him: she is in the operating room twhum d5iloha we have to wait

3my went to sit next to his daughter trying to console her since he was worried about her health with the baby.

Bu sul6an looked at 3azzam with sad eyes.

him: a7ibha 3azzam o abeha I dont want to play around, lazem itgoum please gouly ra7 itgoum

3azzam hugged his friend trying to find the right words to settle his feelings.

But he couldnt.

No one knew what was going to happen.

After for what seemed like days, the doctor finally stepped out of the operating room and he looked worried. Bu sul6an was the first one to reach to him.

him: ha dictor shlounha?

Dr: wain oboha?

3my: mo mwjoyd bs ana 3mha

Dr: tf'9al m3y shway bl maktab

Bu sul6an was anxious he wanted to know if I was okay.

3my: 3sa ma shar dictor 6amneny

Dr: wala il 9ara7a ma aby alif wdour il bnt imbayn 3laiha she is being abused o 7ta itha btgouly it was an accident aw its coincidence that for the past 4 years she has been in here almost every other month ib ra7tik but I wont believe you

3my: I wont say its not true

Dr: the girl cannot take it anymore, not only physically but emotionally the girl is slowly dying every time she comes to us, intaw ma la7'6taw il bnt is out of life, she doesnt talk she doesnt laugh dymen brou7a o hal shay mo 6ab3y for a 23 year old girl

3my: shino il 7l dictor ana ma knt adre bly e9er ana in9idamt lmn bntay galatly

Dr: tgdar itqadem shakwa aw bala'3 3ly e9er and I have more than enough proof to show ina she is being abused by her family

3my: lazem afaker dictor hatha o5oy

Dr: il bnt bl 3nya bn5aleha for a few days intab3 7alt-ha o b3dain we will move her to a room

3my: mashkour dictor!

Just as my uncle was about to share the news of my health to everyone man9or walked in with tears in his eyes. He look like he has seen a ghost!

man9or: wainha wainha

Bu sul6an ran over to him grabbing him from his shirt, but 3azzam pushed him away

him: 5alny athb7a

3my: bu sul6an yuba hathy o5oha

him: walla in ma gamat matloum ila nafsik SAM3

man9or: 3my ... ana .... wainha ....

3my: ehya bl 3nya al7en o m3a il ayam bnshouf 7alt-ha

man9or: 3my walla ma knt adree, ana rdait il bait o rosey galatly o ri7t 3nd oboy o kalamta o walla 3my ana ma knt ra'9y bly 9eer o kl ma kanaw e6igonha knt a7awel fehum bs ma7d kan ysm3ly fa knt a6l3 mn il bait adre iny o5oha bs hathy oboy

3my: bs man9or int il rayal mfrou'6 t7meha ehya shthanbha

man9or: walla adree ya 3my

Man9or broke down crying, he couldnt handle it he knew he should have been a better brother he knew he should have protected me but he just couldnt take it. He couldnt stand in my father's way.

3my: 5ala9 yuba 5ala9 man9or int rayal she needs you now

Jara7 and Samar walked into the hospital. As soon as jara7 saw his brother his heart ached for him, he walked over to him and hugged him.

jara7: ra7 itgoum ya bu sul6an lat7aty

him: alah ysm3 minik

Samar went to comfort Joun who wasnt doing any better.

3my: baba jouny mo zain 3laich wintay 7amel 7beebty riday il bait m3a 3azzam o irta7y shway o ro7ay 6amnay omich b3d

3azzam: yala baby t3aly

Joun: ayshay e9er call me, o bacher il 9b7 ityebny

3azzam: inshalah 7beebty yala gomay, 3my 6amena 3laiha o ayshay tby kalmny

3my: inshalah 7u6aw balikum

Jara7 and Samar stayed for half and hour and then left since Samar had to be home. Man9or, 3my and Bu sul6an stayed.

I had 3 broken rips, a dislocated shoulder, broken arm, fractured leg, my cheek bone was bruised badly and so was my collar bone.

Bu sul6an spent his days in the hospital. He would be the last one to leave and the first one to arrive. I was in the ICU for 3 days so he would just stand and watch me from behind the glass.

He broke everyone's heart.

He didnt eat.

He didnt sleep.

HE just stood there watching me.

3my: yuba bu sul6an ta3al ig3ad shway

He didnt want to turn him down so he went to sit next to him. No one has talked about why he was constantly there, but it was clear.

3my: inshalah btgoum bl salama

him: inshalah, 3my ana youm 9arat il salfa ahaly kanaw 3ndaha 3my ana abeha ma aby a3esh mn '3airha bs 5ayf ahlha ma yr'9oun feny shasawi gouly shasawi

3my: lat7aty aw3dik inha lik

him: 9ij 3my

3my: akeed bu sul6an int rayal wlni3m feek o ma ra7 alga a7ad e5af 3laiha akthar minik whya mi7taja a7ad yhtam feeha o e7ibha

him: ana b7u6ha ib galby 3my lat7aty

3my: 5ala9 3yal int lat7aty ana akalm oboha w9er 5air inshalah, ma taby itrou7 il bait itray7lik shway 9arlik cham youm mo nayem

him: 5ala9 ana mashy al7en bs ayshay e9er kalmony

3my: inshalah

He wanted to be happy, he wanted to believe what my uncle promised him but he knew in the end it was her father's decision which is why he was feeling uneasy.

He headed over to his grandfather's house since they started working on his room.

him: il salam 3laikum

mother: w 3laikum il salam

him: ha yuma shlonich

mother: il 7imdilah yuma shaklik t3ban

He sat down next to her

him: ee wala yuma ta3ban

mother: yuma ma medany akalmik 3n araya

He quickly sat up wanted to hear what his mother thought of her

mother: yuma ma t9l7lik il bnt

him: na3am?

mother: ee yuma il bnt ma titkalam, a7is malha sha59ya wnt it7ib itsolif o t6l3 wtrou7 o il 9ara7a omha ma ry7tny

him: ana btzawjha ehya wla omha

mother: ism3ny ya bu sul6an il bnt ma t9l7lik int ma 63tny m3a 5awla o shouf sh9ar ma buga a7ad ma tikalm 3nik, 9irt 3lch b7louj il nas, 5awla itbalt 3la o5ok o bdl ma it9adg o5ok wnt 3rf tarbeta 5thait-ha o 6l3t ib shuqa w7na siktna leana glna il muhum inik mirta7 o shouf bl a5eer shswait int ma fakart ib a7ad '3airk ma fakart ib 5awatik ily ma7ad 6aq babna ys2l 3nhum int wagft n9ebhum

His mother left him in his own thoughts, guilt started to eat him up. She was right, people think it was him who cheated. Rand just graduated from university and no one has asked about her, and its not because she isnt pretty or san3a she was but maybe his mother was right it was his fault.

He headed to his room to take a shower, hoping the water would drain his thoughts but it didnt work.

knock knock

rand: bu sul6an

him: come in rand

Rand sat down next to him on the bed and placed her hand on his.

rand: shfeek 7beeby tell me whats bothering you

him: mafeny shay laish

rand: again I ask you shfeeck

him: omy sam3tny kalam and I think its right

rand: shgalat

him: ina araya ma t9l7ly

rand: but she loves you and you love her

him: a3shqha mo bs a7ibha

rand: so what is the problem

him: she didnt like her mother, o galat ma t9la7ly wnha mo ra'9ya o she brought up the whole 5awla thing o galat iny intaw ma7ad yakum bcause of ily 9ar

rand: haa mn 9ijik? il zawaj qsma o n9eb ana twny mit5arja o mahola lail7en bl thanwya that doesnt mean ra7at 3laina b3dain ma tadre ymken we dont get married o its better than us marrying a guy who hits us, aw cheats on us 9a7

him: akeed

rand: so dont you dare think about kalmha sam3ny araya galbha aby'9 mo mithel 5awla, o she loves you o she is good for you 9adgny

him: she is in the hospital

rand: shino?

He told her everything, and her ached for me even though she met me once but she saw how much I meant to her brother, and he meant the world to her.

He even told her the truth about 5awla.

rand: inta lat7aty wnshalah btkoun mn n9ebik

him: inshalah

rand: laish ma teyey tit3sha ma3y?

him: la wala mly nfs bs banam

rand: okay aby ayey m3ak il mustashfa bacher

him: 5ala9 okay wake me up at 9 please mo tit25rain

rand: inshalah yala good night

Rand headed to her mothers room where she explained to her everything, she even told he that 5awla was the one who cheated on him and not the opposite.

mother: b3d galby 3la wldy

rand: mama dont tell him I told you he doesnt want anyone to know

mother: lat7aten yuma, intay ro7ay shoufay il bnt o 6amneny 3laiha

rand: inshalah yuma

The next morning he was awakened by his sister, they stopped for fa6ayer and 9aj sandwiches then headed to the hospital. I had been in a room for 2 days now and according to the doctor I was doing well.

Man9or hasnt been in to see me but he was in the hospital.

When bu sul6an and rand arrived no one was there yet, they came into my room and as soon as he stepped in I opened my eyes.

him: arooya 7beebty

I just looked at him.

He called the doctor and they checked everything and il 7imdilah all was going well, they took me off the respirator but I needed the oxygen mask to help me breath.

He sat down next to me holding my hand.

him: 7imdilah 3la salamtich

I removed the mask, tried clearing my voice

me: alah esalmik

my voice was faint and barely audible but I just wanted to talk to him.

him: sh sh sh 7beebty dont talk

He placed the mask on me once again and he just sat there looking at me, playing with my hair. We were completely oblivious to his sister, and to Jara7 and Samar he walked in. I was in pain, but having him close to me made it all better.

I loved him.

He loved me.

I just wanted to be with him.
Everyone was thrilled that I was awake and after endless pleading from my uncle man9or finally came in to see me. Since I had a pipe down my throat for 6 days my words were just a bit slurry, it was hard to talk, it actually hurt.

Man9or looked like he hadnt slept in days, it broke my heart. Then I started thinking about my parents, neither one came to see me and I doubt they asked.

man9or: 7imdilah 3la salamtich

me: a ... a .. alaah e esal esalmik

man9or: shfeha ma titkalm 3del?

he was terrified.

3my: 3dy man9or il dictor gal yabelha cham youm bs wtrid titkalm 3dy

man9or sat down next to me on my bed, he was just looking at me. I was purple especially my face. Honestly I looked different, but at the time I dont think it mattered, I was just happy.

Joun: baba when can she leave

3my: wala ma adre 3la il dictor

man9or: bt5alonha itrid il bait?

3my: la r7 tyey 3ndy

man9or: la 3my 5alha itrid il bait o ana a7u6 baly 3laiha

Joun: LA sorry man9or so we wont take the risk

3my: 5alha trta7 3ndina cham youm b3dain e9er 5air o int man9or il bait baitik 3my mita ma tby itshoufha 7yak

man9or: inshalah

I could see he wanted me to home but I couldnt.

Joun: rosey keeps asking about you kl shway she calls me wt7in

I smiled, I wish I could just live in a house with just Rosey and I.

one can only dream right pixie?

I hadnt seen him since the morning, but every time someone walks in I look at the door hoping its him but no.

After staying with me for an hour, he headed out with his sister and went back home.

mother: bu sul6an

staqfar allah walla ta3ban

him: hala yuma

mother: yuma sam7ny 3la kalam ams ana aby sa3aditk inta im3wr galby 3la 7altik

him: yuma lat7ateen ana aham shay 3ndy itkonen ra'9ya 3ly

mother: akeed ra'9ya 3laik wtha int 7as ina araya ily t9la7lik ana imwafqa

he wanted to scream, the fact that his mother was against the marriage at the beginning bothered him.

him: yuma ugh araya bl mustashfa

mother: 3sa ma shar shfeha?

Even though she heard the story she was thrilled her son wanted to share with her. He told her how my family abuses me, and its not my fault and I am the way I am because of how I was treated.

mother: 5ala9 btro7laha il laila?

him: ee laish

mother: aby arou7 m3ak

He walked over to his mother kissing the crown of her head.

They decided after 9alat ilm'3rb they would come see me.

Joun: arooya

me: mm

It was just the two of us in the room, 3azzam went to get some dinner for everyone. 3my went back home to rest and come back, and man9or was going to bring Rosey, tea and come back.

Joun: are you in pain?

I nodded

Joun: tben anady il nurse t36ech pain killer

I shook my head no.

Joun: will you eat something for me?

I just smiled, she knew the answer.

So bu sul6an. I looked up at her with my rosy cheeks.

Joun: as much as I was fighting against the two of you, I will fight for you now you knew he was married right

me: mm

Joun: did he tell you what happened

me: la

Joun: they werent dating, but he saw her and he liked her irta7 I guess and even though everyone stood against him he went through with it and she gave him such a hard time and would start trouble with his mother and sisters but his mother mashalah 3laiha galbha kbeer and she would put up with her for him, apparently he caught her cheating

me: w what?

Joun: I dont know the specifics but for the longest time I thought he was the one who cheated and that is why I was against him and you but he then explained everything to me

me: so h he isnt a b bad b boy?

Joun: hahah la 7uby he is a great guy

Just on cue he walked in with his mother

them: il salam 3laikum

us: w 3laikum il salam

Joun: hala 5alty shlonich?

his mother: b5air il 7imdilah intay shlouich m3a il 7amal?

Joun: t3b bs il 7imdilah

his mother: 7imdilah 3la salamtich araya

me: a alah e esalmich 5 5alty

him: la titklmain 7beebty irta7y

I turned a deep crimson red 7beebty in front of his mother?

Joun: bdaina twkum ib awal il 6reej

His mother pulled a chair next to me and was looking at me loving, my insides were burning. Joun distracted his mother talking about birth and babies while he leaned in to talk to me.

him: shlonich?

me: zaina

him: Joun galatly ma kalaity shay 9ij

me: ee

him: laish baba

me: mo yo3ana

him: bs you are weak lazem taklen, 3shany please

me: inshalah

Man9or and Rosey walked in, she ran over to me and hugged me while she cried.

Joun: rosey 5ala9 she is fine why are you crying

3my also walked in greeting everyone and he was followed by 3azzam. The men stepped outside since I needed to get up and use the restroom. Every move hurt because of my broken ribs.

I managed to eat half a sandwich but the pain I was in was excruciating.

3my: man9or bu sul6an 6alb ed i5tik wna wafgt bs int o5oho il kber wl kilma kilmitik shrayik?

man9or: il 9ara7a 3my ana m3ndy mani3 bs oboy shloun

3my: ana kalamta o galy ina araya bnty o uhwa mala shu'3ul bs ana aby rayik

man9or: bu sul6an rayal wlni3m fee

him: tslam yal '3aly

3azzam: ha inbarkla

man9or: barkola

3my hugged him congratulating him.

3my: 7u6ha b3yonik tara ehya '3alya 3laina

him: lat7aty 3my araya bl galb

3my walked in to break the good news.

3my: mabrook arooytee

me: 3la shino?

3my: 3la bu sul6an

They are killing me, I couldnt stop blushing. Laish il i7raj!

him: man9or mita ngdar namilich?

his mother: haa laish mist3yl

him: ma aby an6er yuma

man9or: 5alha t6l3 mn il mustashfa

him: laa laish inyeb il malach ehny

Joun: il bnt malha ry? b3dain naby enjahzlaha

him: 3dy namlich o i5thaw ra7tkum bl tjheez

3my: ha man9or

man9or: haa arooy

They all turned to look at me; him, his mother, Joun, 3azzam, 3my, rosey and man9or and I think I looked like a blob of red paint.

I didnt have to answer, it showed.

3my: 3la 5air inshalah namlich b3d yomain

He wanted to jump in and say tomorrow bs ist7a.

So pixie I guess I am marrying him.

He left the hospital with his mother, 3azzam took Joun home because she wasnt feeling well, 3my had to leave and it was just man9or rosey and myself.

man9or: intay ra'9ya fee

me: um ee you dont think he is good?

man9or: mn ily shfta he is o 3my trusts him

me: um man9or

man9or: they asked about you and I told them you were doing better

I looked away.

rosey: you only ate half a sandwich eat the other half

me: maby

rosey: ay araya eat I will call the doctor, why you dont marry the doctor he has better job

man9or: hahaa rosey

rosey: im serious he is handsome also and doctor

man9or: mynoona hathy, yala rosey ill take you home and ill call the nurse to give you a pain killer 3shan itnameen okay

me: okay

I was left alone, as strange as it sounded I was actually happy. I needed time to think, everything so happened. I went from almost dying to getting married in 2 days.

I am getting married after tomorrow.

He is going to be my husband after tomorrow.

holy crap

after tomorrow.
So im going to be married in less than 24 hours, I know I never thought I would be saying that. Actually I never thought I would be getting married so suddenly, while im all banged up. Let me fill you in on what happened.

The day before katb il kitab.

Doctor: haa araya shlonich

me: zaina, mita agdar a6l3

Doctor: today if you would like

me: 9ij ?

Doctor: ee walla bs its going to be hard 3laich fa you will need help for the first few days

me: its okay ill manage

Doctor: lat5aleny I pass by to make sure you are okay

okay I didnt know if he was flirting or just being a good doctor, regardless, he walked in the second the doctor said that. He gave both of us a look then pulled a chair next to me and held my hand in an attempt to "Claim me."

The doctor smiled and excused himself.

him: ashofich mistansa

me: ee I can leave today

him: aha

me: shfeeck?

him: what did I walk in on?

me: um nothing

him: o all the giggling o smiles

me: are you serious?

him: ee shino shakly im joking

me: he is my doctor

him: okay witha y3nee

I looked at him stunned, this was a side to him I hadnt seen but was he really jealous because I was talking to my doctor?

Joun: wow you can cut the tension with a knife

him: ana mashy itha tben shay call me

me: okay

We waited for him to leave then she asked me.

Joun: shfee?

me: ma adree, imagine he walked in o I was talking to my doctor o galy what did I walk in on o I dont know what

Joun: 7uby its okay after what he had gone through lazem eshik shway

me: bs im not like her

Joun: I know, and he will see that I promise

me: I hope so, we arent married yet o hathy awalha

Joun: welcome to married life

me: you arent making it sound pleasant

Joun: it is babe bs its not easy, and its not always life its hard making 2 people live 1 life

I stayed quiet, I dont think it hit me just how serious the step I was taking. It wasnt as simple as going out it was going to be a life altering decision.

I was scared.

I got ready to leave, Joun and 3azzam have prepared their guest room for me since it was on the bottom floor and it was a mini suit in case Bu sul6an wanted to sleep over after we were officially together.

Rosey had packed my clothes and my personal belongings and set it all up in my room at the house, the thing is I still havent talked to him about where I were to live.

man9or: ha are you ready

me: ee

man9or: wain bu sul6an?

me: um galy he will meet us ib bait 3azzam

man9or: akeed you dont want to live it home I promise you I will take better care of you I wont leave your side bs I need you there

me: I wish I could 7beeby bs I dont want to risk it

him: o ana mo ra'9y

I didnt know if I was happy, scared, or just numb.

Man9or left me with him 3la ma he went to get the car.

me: um I didnt get a chance to ask you about where I was staying, I hope you dont mind that im staying at 3azzam and Joun's place right?

him: akeed 7beebty, ana knt bgolich itha tben tsknen 3ndy bs my apartment still isnt ready bs awal mat5al9 we will furnish it o move in shrayich

me: ee perfect

him: omy s2ltny itha tben 3rs

me: honestly la we can have a small party bl bait 3dee

him: ily tbena rytee o im sorry about over reacting

me: its okay 7beeby

him: ya 7ilo hl klma minich, shaklich t3bana

me: I am it hurts when I stand

him: tbeny ashelich?

me: laaa

He moved closer to me 7sait b6e7 mn zoud ma he makes me dizzy.

him: laish

me: um bs not now

him: so tomorrow ha

I turned crimson red.

him: my9er tst7en

I was saved by the bell, man9or called Bu sul6an informing him he was out front. He sat me down on a wheel chair and wheeled me over to the car, where he carried me into the back seat then drove behind us.

His mother, 3my and murta, 3azzam, Joun, Samar, Jara7 and rosey were all waiting for me. Joun asked Rosey to just live with us, and im guessing my parents didnt mind.

We all sat down for dinner, then at 10 everyone called it a night since they had a lot to do for tomorrow. Joun informed me that there would be someone coming in to do my hair and make up and my nails.

He waited for me to get ready for bed, with the help of Joun and Rosey I took a shower, changed and snuggled into bed. He knocked on my door making sure I was descent and we stayed up until 1 just talking.

It felt great.

This was something I was looking forward to.

It was a matter of hours before he was officially mine, and I dont know what is in store for us but I can only hope for the best.

goodnight pixie.
Two years ago today my life started. I got married and even though I didnt have the wedding I always pictured I got something better, I got the perfect man and now we have our 6 month old beautiful baby girl.

She has her father's big eyes, but my eye color.

I stare at her all day, worried about how I am going to raise her, how I will show her how much she means to us. I just want to hold her in my arms where I know she will be safe, and no one will ever hurt her.

She always bursts into laughter when her father carries her and as soon as he cradles her she is quiet and will just sleep in his arm, he always teases me claiming I am jealous.

Im not.

Out "wedding day" was perfect. I woke up early that morning, excited. I took a bubble bath to calm my nerves, then I had a body scrub which was exhilarating. Joun and I got our hair, make up and nails done at home. I felt like a princess, everything coming to me and all I had to say was "aby."

He pampered me with attention that day, and with love. He couldnt believe I was finally his.

aah I couldnt believe it either I kept looking over at him.

him: shfeech

me: nothing

knt 9ij miftashla bs I couldnt help myself, he was mine. My husband.

him: mistansa

me: ee

him: it7beny?

I just lowered my head embarrassed.

I wore a simple pearl white lace dress. We had the party in my uncles house, my parents showed up to congratulate me.

mama: swaity ily ib rasich o 5thaity?


baba: mabrook yuba

me: allah ebarik ib 7yatik

baba: ma awa9ek 3laiha

him: ehya b3youny

They went over to my parents in law congratulated them and then left. I only see them once a month when he takes me to visit, I didnt want to go but he told me it was the right thing to do and I agree.

I call my mother every now and then and for some reason I know she was excited about my pregnancy and after I gave birth she came over to bait 3my everyday to see her, since that was where I was.

Man9or never left my side, throughout the past two years. He completely transformed into a new man, I am looking for a wife for him, and I only want the best for my brother.

I havent seen my brother barak since before the hospital, I get my news from Man9or, nothing good of course.

Jara7 and Samar had their wedding ceremony in December, 6 months after my milcha. They had a huge wedding it was breath taking from the flowers, to the decorations and the gowns everything was just immaculate. I remember when I came back from the wedding the conversation I had with him.

him: ha baby inshalah istansty

me: I did they looked amazing

him: la bs mo a7la mna 9a7

me: akeed dm int ryle

him: wintay murty il zain kila

we intertwined our fingers enjoying the bliss and serenity being close to each other brought to us.

We moved in our apartment, which was in their house right before the wedding, and we have been living there since. I honestly dont want to leave. When Samar and Jara7 came back from their honeymoon they moved in in his apartment which was across from us.

Samar is now 5 months pregnant and we couldnt be happier.

Rand, his eldest sister, recently got engaged to a man who works with her so we are currently preoccupied with her wedding arrangements, its such a hassle I am glad I didnt have one.

Oh we headed to the Maldives for our honeymoon, we left once I was fully recovered so we could enjoy it fully.

And boy did we.

I couldnt keep my hands off him.

And he loved it.

Aah thinking about it makes me tingly all over.

A month after Jara7 and Samar's wedding I got pregnant and I had the worst time I was on bed rest because I was so weak and my body couldnt hand the strain of a baby. I was worried I would lose it but il7imdilah she was healthy.

I secretly wanted a boy, but I cant imagine my life without her she is my everything.

I didnt go back to work but kept doing some free lance work for a few privately owned companies. At first he didnt want me to but I found a way to convince him.

him: laish tben you work

me: it will get boring if I stay home please 7beeby

him: okay

me: bs okay?

him: ee mo 3jbeny bs itha its what you want then okay

I made it up to him that night and he forgot about it in the morning, he just woke up with a smile.

Of course jealousy was such an issue for the first year it was just suffocating even when I was pregnant with my baby bump he still thought I might be looking around.

Il 7imdilah we are over that.

I wanted to stop writing but I just couldnt, you are part of my life pixie and even though I had to buy a new diary, I now just call it pixie junior, sorry original pixie, but now I think its time to stop.

I am just happy there is no other way to put it and even though you have been with me through the ups and downs now I can stand on my own two feet and I have him to take care of me and make me forget all the bad because he is the good.

Rosey now lives with us and is helping me take care of baby Masa.

5alty chose the name and I just loved it.

It breaks my heart that my parents dont want to be a part of my life but as bad as it may sound it their loss.

Joun, aah joun she has the most adorable, chubbiest baby boy he is almost 18 months old fa tawa bady he gets the hang of running and all he wants to do is just run around everyone, but his chubbiness factor limits his movement, also he gets tired real quick.

ya5tee 3laih! mn al7en 3azzam 7ajz bnty for his son, and honestly it would be an honor.

They called him R3d, after my husband.

I knew weird name huh? but it just enhances his bad boy imagine, my husband that is not baby r3ood.

First year of marriage was a roller coaster, good days and bad days but over all nothing too major and we always managed to settle our issues ourselves, we never brought it anyone from our family because we lived it would just further complex our issues.

I have to agree.

My baby girl is crying out for me so I have to leave you pixie.

Just a few things to say.

Live each day like its your last.

Give your heart to the one you love because even if they might break it they will be the only ones who can put it back together again.

Good bye pixie.


  1. That story was one of my best ones (Y)

  2. caramela: honestly mine too ;** this and jawl which is why I reposted them I am not sure I will with the others.

    I was rereading forbidden love and I couldnt believe I wrote it I absolutely hated it il 9ar7aa, something new was fun many enjoyed it so ymken I will ;**

  3. weeee ya7lailhum im soo happy they lived happily ever after!!!! :D araya deserves it :)

  4. Ahhhh it was best story ever <3

    Loved it to bits :$

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    Love u :*

  5. Regardless the fact that this story was just 3 stories, I swear to you this has been by far the best one I've read. I always said other blogs were amazing, but nothing comes close to this. The way you write blew my mind away. I might be late, I know, but with all honor, it was my pleasure to read your stories, especially this one. It's different than other stories, it's not all about love. No, it is about something that happens in reality. And for you to show this to the world outside, is wonderful. So I thank you. I thank you for teaching me a lesson.

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    2. Hehe I meant 3chapters* got too excited.

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